In going through the lines of Bert's Barcelona translation my mind, many times
agrees and wonders about what the old man says. However, my heart already
distrusts as the heart of a young betrayed lover. It would like to belive once
more, but the strength just doesn't come.
However, at the same time, when he says this:
"Within myself I carry a very deep need and I am feeling very well about
it. I have a deep need to become a forgotten one. Then I am free, totally
free."
Then I tremble, I somehow feel my legs weak, just maybe, as Castaneda felt when
don Juan was saying bye for the last time before jumping to ultimate freedom,
and vertigo shattered his soul in front of eternity.
And this unbearable lightness of being...
I then feel or think I feel this great man's loneliness.
The true depthness of his being untouched by any sciencia,
only by the wind and the fire.
I certainly wont follow him into sciencia, but,
surely I will jump after him into the arms of oblivion.
O Captain! My Captain!
..........................
I couldn't go without putting these words by the nexus 6 in Bladerunner,
minutes before his jump into the great void.
"I've seen things you people wouldn't believe. Attack ships on fire off the
shoulder of Orion. I watched C-beams glitter in the dark near the Tannhauser
Gate. All those … moments will be lost in time, like tears in rain... Time to
die."
daniel.
